Foggy Mornings (and not in my head)

My 'new' Sailing Pants 

Well so far I have made it half way through the semester, or a quarter way done the year and still functioning... mostly. If you can call functioning as going to bed at 7:30 most nights, spending 18 hours at the university in two days, 16 hours in clinical, finding ONE thing a week to do that I enjoy and seeing literally only 2 of my friends in the last month functioning then there you go!

Beauty

However though in all seriousness I am doing alright. (I may take that back when I get my midterm mark back next Tuesday) But I am. I have worked hard on getting my assignments done at least a week in advance, I've been doing great in clinical, I don't feel like I've been hit by a bus everyday, just sometimes.

I do feel blessed that I have been doing so well lately. It has been nice to just stick my nose to the grind and just doing school. The anticipation of it is was I think really killed me at the beginning of the semester. I was feeling pretty scared and at first was not helped with different things in school and a few people suggested that I take this year in two, which also brought my confidence down. But now that I am getting things done, I've gotten a few marks back and I'm doing alright.

I think the best part of this month has been the amount of energy that I have had. The steroids were a great idea, sure I didn't feel great for the week after, but I just needed to remember what I felt like after that horrid week. The last appointment when I was down in Vancouver I also asked for some sleeping drugs, like I told you before, and they are GREAT! I almost feel normal, which is such an amazing feeling.

Awk, perfection.

Today actually I got up early, as usual and it was still foggy outside and I decided to have an adventure. Came home around 0900, showered, puttered around and then started studying. It wasn't until about 3:00 that I realized I hadn't thought about my fatigue all day. Which doesn't happen often at all. But it put a smile on my face and I felt thankful.

Thankful:
-for those who care about me,
-who pray for my on a daily basis,
-who put up with me (Christie, Anna, my family),
-for those I met this summer and who show their appreciation for me,
-I was feeling thankful for drugs that help me sleep,
-for music and for having the house to myself while I have dance parties alone
-for walks in Moore's Meadow and finding tree forts




These past few weeks have been crazy busy, somewhat stressful, but so far they have been good. I have had prayers answered and found joy in the little things. So that has been great.

Thank you for keeping up with me and walking along me in my journey and this crazy time.

Kate